My Personal Reflection on 2014

As a finale to 2014, I thought I would finish Awaken’s newsletter series with a reflection of my progress throughout this year.  As some of you already know, I have had quite a trying year, with numerous lifelong health challenges coming to a head.  I have needed to re-organize drastically in order to reach a healthier, happier, more sustainable place. 

I am telling you my personal story for 2 reasons:

  1. I believe it is important for each practice member to understand that I am human, and I go through changes and challenges just like every other practice member under care.
  2. I hope to give you a different perspective on how to look at the challenges you all face in your own life, and a different way to move forward with them.

Ever since I was 3 months old I have suffered with on/off severe bouts of constipation and poor digestion.
When I was 14 years the constipation got worse, to the point I was going only once per month.  This went on for a year, and my only relief was to take suppositories, which I didn’t like doing.  I was taken to see a lady who practiced Bowen Technique, which greatly helped me during this time in my life.  I was recommended as well as the treatment she offered, the blood type diet.  I am a blood type A.  This is where I found out that people with blood type A don’t have as many digestive enzymes in their stomach as the other blood types.  It is therefore harder to digest most meats, wheat, gluten and dairy products.  At this point I decided to cut out all meats, except chicken, turkey and fish.  Following this decision I rapidly found a distinct improvement in my ability to digest foods and I found a great improvement in my constipation. (At least I would pass twice weekly now).


I then went onto explore foods more.  I tried food combining, then tried cutting out wheat and gluten, then dairy.  No other alteration to my diet seemed to make a difference.   At 17 I was diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS).  A couple of years later I found an eBook online called no more ovarian cysts.  Believe it or not, this book stated the same rules as the blood type diet, and recommended no meat, no wheat, gluten, dairy.  I had been to see many different types of healthcare practitioners for my digestive problems and my PCOS, nothing was particularly effective in creating a sustainable change.

At the start of this year my constipation came back on a truly gigantic scale.  I suffered huge anal fissures, and cuts in that part of my body, just trying to pass.  My body had seemed to become immune to my diet, and even natural laxatives, including linseed, and natural fibres.  Nothing I took helped me at this point.  About February time I was getting terrible internal haemorrhoids, and by March they had migrated to the external.  I was at a loss.  I couldn’t go to the loo, straining made my haemorrhoids come out, then I would bleed, and natural laxatives didn’t work.  I had to resort to suppositories again.  I was in a great deal of panic, and I carried out my own internal examination.  I didn’t like what I was feeling, as it felt like an intestinal prolapse.

GP Visit

I shorty made an appointment with my GP, and as most of you are familiar with; I was told that I was unlucky and that I had been given a terrible digestive system that I would just have to live with, and to make my life easier I would have to take laxatives every day for the rest of my life.  He carried out an internal examination, and concluded that I if I was still having problems after taking the laxatives then I should come back and I would be referred to a consultant.  I had to take the laxatives before he would give me the referral; no matter how hard I pushed.

In my opinion taking laxatives for the rest of my life is not the answer.  I am only 26.  I then had a decision to make:

Do I take the laxatives against my own will and then go and see the consultant?
Do I go on a different path – I had no idea what that looked like at this point?

I couldn’t seem to make the decision based on the questions I had asked myself.  To be honest I didn’t want to do either of them because:

1) I didn’t want to take laxatives and

2) I had no idea what to do next.   I had tried so many things at this point, and all that was happening was more things were going wrong with my body.

I decided to ask myself a different question. The question I asked was:

How would my LIFE need to look and what would I NEED TO DO to have a really healthy digestive system/colon/reproductive system?

I already knew the answer to half of the question (i.e. making my digestive system really healthy).  I had no idea how my life would need to look.

In May I went back to see my colonic irrigation therapist, to get a clear out, and I went every week for 3 weeks. We discussed patterns of behaviour that can induce colon related problems.  (This was really helpful as she sees loads of clients with lots of different problems, and she has managed to relate patterns of behaviour and linked them with different digestive conditions).

For me especially this pattern was the not being able to “let go”.  In a way it was a control issue.  This set me on a different path, as it gave me something different to focus on.

I had to ask myself another question in order to be able to move forwards (it’s not enough to focus on letting go, and not being in control).  The next question I asked is:

If I was able to erase my ability to control my surroundings, and if I was able to let go with ease, how would my life look?

The answer for me was:

More freedom, more fun, I would be more “ME”. I would have to confidence to show up in life more readily, and become more present with others.

This then gave me the ability to tell my own chiropractor what I wanted next from care.

After this revelation my haemorrhoids instantly started disappearing.  I was finding that I was beginning to show myself more (the protective front that I used to have was fading) and I was connecting more easily with people.

On an interesting note,

On my first colonic session the therapist could only fill my colon half full with water.  Every session she could fill me up with more water.  It took 6 sessions in order for her to fill me up completely.

Whilst that was working

I went on a chiropractic retreat in June, and found out that I had embedded body confidence issues.  After an entrainment my belly just seemed to hang out in front of my body, and I realized that I would try and hold my belly in, so that it wouldn’t hang out, but after this session I had so much pain when I tried to hold myself in, it wasn’t possible.  This was another revelation, as I had no idea I was doing this, but shortly remembered that when I was about 14 I would practice holding in my belly in front of the mirror, I never realized that this had such negative effects on my body and my health.

I have practiced all year to just let things hang the way they were intended and find the ease in my body, and connect with that part of my body in a different way.  After the retreat, my constipation had practically disappeared, and I didn’t need to strain either.

Ever since then I have been getting more confident in myself and in my body.  I can pretty much eat anything, and although some foods my body doesn’t like, I get the message straight away.  Eating certainly doesn’t seem to affect my digestive system or colon.

The fact that I am a more open person, more present in the world and with others, and able to have fun and enjoy myself more, has been of great value to my life, and my body seems to have made a big U-turn this year.

I learnt this year a valuable lesson that I wish to share with you:

In summary:

If you want to change the fruits, you will first have to change the roots.  If you want to change the visible, you must first change the invisible.

For example:

Imagine a tree.  Let’s suppose this tree represent the tree of life.  On this tree there are fruits.  In life, our fruits are called our results. So we look at the fruits (our results) and we don’t like them; there aren’t enough of them, they’re too small, or they don’t taste good.
So what do we tend to do?  Most of us put even more attention and focus on the fruits, our results.  But what is it that actually creates those particular fruits?  It’s the seeds and the roots that create those fruits.

It’s what’s under the ground that creates what’s above the ground

It’s what’s invisible that creates what’s visible.  So what does that mean?  It means that if you want to change the fruits, you will first have to change the roots.  If you want to change the visible, you must first change the invisible.  Of course, some say that seeing is believing.  The question I have for such people is “why do you bother paying your electric bill?”  Although you cannot see electricity, you can certainly recognize and use its power.  If you have any doubt as to whether it exists, just stick your finger in an electric socket and I guarantee that your doubts will quickly disappear.

In my experience

What you cannot see in this world is far more powerful that anything you can see.  You may or may not agree with this statement, but to the extent that you do not apply this principle in your life, you must be suffering.  Why?  Because you are going against the laws of nature, whereby what is under the ground creates what is above the ground, where what is invisible creates what is visible.

As humans we are a part of nature, not above it.  Consequently, when we align with the laws of nature and work on our roots – our “inner” world – our life flows smoothly.  When we don’t, life gets rough.   You cannot change the fruits that are already hanging on the tree.  You can however change tomorrow’s fruits.  But to do so, you will have to dig below the ground and strengthen the roots.

One of the most important things you can ever understand is that we do not live on only one plane of existence.  We live in at least four different realms at once.  These four quadrants are the physical world, mental world, emotional world, and the spiritual world.

What most people never realise is that the physical realm is merely a printout of the other three

For example, let’s suppose you’ve just written a letter on your computer.  You hit the print key and the letter comes out of your printer.  You look at your hard copy and lo and behold, you find a typo.  Then you hit the print again, and out comes the same typo.

Oh my gosh, how could this be?  You just erased it!  So this time you get a bigger eraser and you rub even harder and longer.  You even study a three-hundred-page manual called “Effective Erasing”.  Now you’ve got all the “tools” and knowledge you need.  You’re ready.  You hit print and there it is again! “No way” you cry out, stunned in amazement.  “How could this be?  What’s going on here?  Am I in the twilight Zone?”

What’s going on here is that the real problem cannot be changed in the “printout” the physical world;’ it can only be changed in the “program” then mental, emotional and spiritual worlds.

Health is a result, Money is a result, wealth is a result, illness is a result, and your weight is a result.  We live in a world of cause and effect.

So in my own case, I was trying to only effect the physical world with physical effects, and the only thing that was happening was that I had my eraser out and was trying to erase my symptoms, with diet and exercise, and other modalities that I had tried.  It wasn’t until I looked into my emotional and mental worlds that I realized that I was hiding myself (literally physically) and there were emotional and mental components of this.

Becoming more “ME” has changed my inner programing and thus I now have a different “printout” physical body as a result.

Please feel free to share your year with me, email

Perhaps you have a question or would like help with your own health challenges.  Either book a progress exam in clinic or email me at the above address.

I look forward to sharing 2015 with you all.

Have a fabulous New Year Celebration.


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